Winning and Losing

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

So angry you cry

My journal on 10 April 2012, 11am
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I just quarrel with the doc here. They say there is no scan scheduled today. Maybe wed or thurs. they say the team who is in charge of high risk pregnancy say there is no urgency for me to do Doppler test since I do it last Thursday. So I say how can it be when they tell me everyday since last friday that I am doing the scans today.

Then I scold them for implanting this infor into my head and now tell me no scan. Then this mo or doc ask me which doc told me that. I chided him how do I know!!! " I don even know the doc name whom I am talking to right now. "

I feel so angry I started crying... They keep askin me which docs told me then I told them maybe next time the docs should leave a sticker to the patient after they talk to the patient so that we know who the hell talked to us!!!

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Did the Doppler test finally...
没进步没退步
Simply not here not there
But the good part came in later in the day... The senior explained many stuff... It's interesting... To be a gynaecologist.

After a good pour out, my heart felt lighter.. Although no good news so far yet.. In fact, 他妈的, I already don't know what constitutes good news anymore.. I only know what's bad news (read the previous post). All I wishes for is 正常的宝宝平安健康.
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I like this:

Tears are not weaknesses it's all mom's entitlement of recharging for more energy! So I have been recharged! Just like the green lantern warriors!

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