Intelligence lacking

I believe everyone wants to be clever. All my life, I tried to b clever. But hmmm.. Just not too clever. I think clever = reputable uni = sitting in a big office chair with a big table in a big room like we see in channel 8 = big money = shopping in high end boutiques without qualms = driving your children to reputable schools every day = going around the world twice or thrice a year with your family = coming back to a big house with 3 floors and not attached to other houses.. = happy family life.

But not so true in life if you do not have a rich daddy with big business. Not true if ur big rich family do not have relatives like you living in big house withbig business.

I try to be clever n resourceful in my life to make myself useful.

And so when I do not know the answer, I get questions like "how can you not know!" or "why dint you.....!!"

So I blame myself, how can I not know?! Why dint I ...?!

Life is so tough. Having a few small businesses in life, I need to swallow real hard when things don't go my way or things not done proper. Swallow hard to work harder, to be clever. A clever person, a clever sister, a clever auntie, a clever wife n a clever mom. Life is so tough. Just have to swallow hard. Life goes on. World still spin with or without me swallowing it real hard.


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